Week 3: July 22-28, 2021 Uhh, I don't think this is allowed.

Hey Everyone,

 This week definitely had its ups and downs, mostly ups though. This is my MTC halfway point! And that makes me so sad! I love the MTC and I love my district so much. And Hermana Skouson is just the best companion you could ask for. It will be such a hard day when we are done. 

I was just really exhausted this week. I've been sick and then with the bad air quality and other things, I was just dead tired. One morning my alarm went off and thinking about getting out of bed made me snuggle deeper into my blankets. I started praying in my mind and just said, "I will not be able to get out of this bed. I need Your help." And then I just rolled out of bed. A lot of what I am doing I feel like I can't do. I sometimes feel like I am not good enough or not smart enough. All of that is Satan trying to get me. But I do know that with Christ I can do all things, even getting out of bed at 6:30 when I am exhausted. With Him, we all are magnified. 

Each week, we meet on Zoom on Tuesday nights to watch a devotional and then discuss it afterward. This week it was on obedience. The talk given by Elder Soares and Sister Soares was amazing, but the discussion we had as a district afterward was so powerful. All that was shared was so meaningful and thoughtful and brought the Spirit so strongly. We kept getting kicked out of Zoom, but each time we would log back in and keep going. That is what I love so much about my district. Instead of stopping, even though we could have, we kept going because we love each other and we love Christ. After an hour and a half of discussing it, we finished with a prayer. But afterward we all just stayed on and looked at each other. Finally, someone said, "I just love you guys so much." And then we all just reiterated that. This district is so amazing. 

After class one day, I was taking Charlie out and one of JJ's friends, Luke, showed up to pick him up. I hadn't seen any of my family yet and I knew my mom and sisters were not home. But we went inside and I yelled for JJ. As we waited for him, we started talking. And it was great until like five minutes had passed by and JJ still hadn't shown up. So I wandered around the house trying to find him or my dad. They were not home. I walked back over and I looked at Luke and said, "Uhh, I don't think this is allowed..." He then waited on the doorstep until we heard from JJ. It was just really funny. 

Hermano Lopez, a teacher in training that has been with us for about two weeks, is now getting his own district so he had to say goodbye. I didn't really get to know him all that well and he was kind of wary of Hermana Skouson and me. Probably because he was only a few months home from his mission. But it was still sad to see him go and made me so sad for the day when I would say goodbye to my teachers and my district. We all turned on our mics and sang "God Be With You Til We Meet Again." It was both sad and hilarious. 

On Saturday, I was just not having a good day. Someone had kind of made fun of me being a representative of Christ and then during a workshop people were saying things that just bothered me. At that point, I was really wondering if this was what I was supposed to be doing. I read my patriarchal blessing which comforted me and helped me put my doubts and feelings into a better perspective. I prayed for guidance and to understand the reasons why I am doing this. So many things came to my mind, but the most important was the people that I will teach the Gospel. The work I am going to do will have eternal consequences. And hopefully those I meet with come at least a little closer to Christ. It was a powerful answer to my prayer. 

I know God answers our prayers. I know He hears us and loves us. He wants to bless us. During companion study this week, Hermana Skouson and I were talking about this. God is not vindictive. He is not all or nothing. He wants so badly to bless us and help us. Let Him into your life and He will completely change it for the better. I love Him and I love this gospel!

Love Hermana Snow